I was just having a conversation with Mr D about my past drinking habits and he reminded me about how if there was ever a beer in the fridge - that he would have left in there to have on the weekend perhaps - I would always drink it straight away.
He was saying 'and you don't even like beer!' .. which is true. But if there was booze in the house it would call to me and I'd consume it pretty quick smart. It wouldn't last more than a day or two in the fridge or cupboard. I'd know it was there and it would go down my throat. Worst was when someone bought us a bottle of gin or whiskey duty free. I'd chomp into pretty enthusiastically and it wouldn't last long. There was never any chance of us having a wine rack or booze fridge. What came in the house got consumed...I think I was born with my 'off switch' broken actually.
That's why I'm an alcoholic.
I like Belle's 'high-bottom alcoholic' moniker and have used that a couple of times recently when describing my drinking to people. 'I'm a high-bottom alcoholic' trips off the tongue a little easier than 'I'm an alcoholic but I stopped drinking before I got too bad'. Or 'I was totally addicted to booze but it was only wine usually and always after 5pm'. So 'high-bottom alcoholic' it is.
Anyway, I'm dragging my now-fabulously-sober ass through the last week or so of thesis writing.
Today was a big day because I went into a copy shop and printed off a complete copy (all 130-ish pages, 35,000-odd words) to proof read over the next week. I am so close now I'm can almost taste what it's going to be like having this thesis gone from my life - and it tastes soooooooo good!!!!!!!!
Yes!!!! I am going to fist pump the air like a crazy woman, watch a million crappy romantic comedies every night, indulge in obscene amounts of Reality TV and cooking programmes, read loads of novels rather than heavy text books, tidy up the garden, go to the gym!, swim lengths at the pool!, fart around in my bedroom trying out outfits (not something I normally do very much), do my nails all the time!!, learn how to salsa dance!! Ok so that last one was a joke... but .... point being ... the finish line is in sight and I am happy with that!!!
Love, Mrs D xxx
